Words per Minute #28: Berry on Change

I’m not a leader. I am, above all, in no way comparable to Gandhi, who was an ascetic. I love the world’s abundance of ordinary pleasures. And he was a leader. I have neither the character nor the abilities required for leadership. And I want no followers. If I looked back and saw myself being followed, my only wish would be to escape. I am a mostly solitary man, always in need of quiet, who has written some essays inviting, not converts or followers, but honest judgment…

In fact, Madhu, what we both want to happen—a counter movement to greed and waste and the dominance of corporations—is already happening. It is happening simply because a lot of people have seen things needing to be done and are doing them. They are at work without grants, without official instruction or permission, and mostly unnoticed by the politicians and the news industry. Eventually this movement will have political powers which will be in some ways regrettable. I hope it will have the sense and strength to remain locally oriented, and to resist the simplification and corruption that will come with power.

This movement involves a lot of people—as I know—who have never read a word I’ve written, who don’t know my name. And it would be happening now, for the same reasons, if I had never written a word. It would be happening because the justifications of individual and corporate greed are now exhausted, and better ways are available. The better ways will be helped along, as we know, by large historical forces such as rising energy costs, rising ecological and social costs, and the inability of governments, large institutions, and corporations to respond effectively.

- Wendell Berry, A Quieter Life Now

October 8, 2012  Leave a comment

Race to light

I run through fire

“I have tasted death, Ziller. When my twin and I merged, we were close enough to the ship being destroyed to maintain a real-time link to the substrate of the Mind within as it was torn apart by the tidal forces produced by a line gun. It was over in a micro-second, but we felt it die bit by bit, area by distorted area, memory by disappearing memory, all kept going until the absolute bitter end by the ingenuity of Mind design, falling back, stepping down, closing off and retreating and regrouping and compressing and abandoning and abstracting and finessing, always trying by whatever means possible to keep its personality, its soul intact until there was nothing remaining to sacrifice, nowhere else to go and no survival strategies left to apply. It leaked away to nothingness in the end, pulled to pieces until it just dissolved into a mist of sub-atomic particles and the energy of chaos. The last two coherent things it held onto were its name and the need to maintain the link that communicated all that was happening to it, from it, to us. We experienced everything it experienced; all its bewilderment and terror, each iota of anger and pride, every last nuance of grief and anguish. We died with it; it was us and we were it.”

- Iain M. Banks, Look to Windward

And i am not burnt

Phlebas the Phoenician, a fortnight dead,
Forgot the cry of gulls, and the deep seas swell
And the profit and loss.
A current under sea
Picked his bones in whispers. As he rose and fell
He passed the stages of his age and youth
Entering the whirlpool.
Gentile or Jew
O you who turn the wheel and look to windward,
Consider Phlebas, who was once handsome and tall as you.

- T.S. Eliot, The Wasteland

But soon i must halt

“He grows disenchanted with the intellect, disenchanted with ideas, disenchanted with consciousness at the intellect, disenchanted with contact at the intellect. And whatever there is that arises in dependence on contact at the intellect, experienced as pleasure, pain or neither-pleasure-nor-pain: He grows disenchanted with that too. Disenchanted, he becomes dispassionate. Through dispassion, he is fully released. With full release, there is the knowledge, ‘Fully released.’ He discerns that ‘Birth is ended, the holy life fulfilled, the task done. There is nothing further for this world.’”

- Ādittapariyāya Sutta

September 27, 2012  Leave a comment

Asymmetry

What do I know of war? Very little, I’m afraid.
Enough to feel foolish standing here alone.
You walked off the battlefield with no warning,
Leaving me panting in the ruins of the world,
Surrounded by these useless spears and shields.

I’ve been stuck with so many swords,
It’s a miracle that I’m still standing;
I guess that makes me a walking miracle.
Am I a lonely soldier on the battlefield,
or a child amongst his worn-out toys?

In the blink of an eye, you lost track of me
As a snake sloughs its skin, leaving it for dust,
And I want to say: if you could see inside
This arrow-stricken heart that I carry with me,
You would never have turned away.

But I don’t burn as bright as I once did –
One too many blows has cracked my casing –
And you looked away for a single second.
A second is all it takes for a battle to be lost,
Even if you’re the last man standing.

My weapons are words that never won a battle yet;
My words are tools that can’t fix what’s broken.
I’m lost, I’m tired, I’m cold, I’m bruised,
I’m aiming for greatness as I wait for you.
Now battle’s over, I suppose I’ll sit here and wait.

Of course I wait for you.

September 2, 2012  1 Comment

In the Living Dawn

The day is like a feral thing, catching at my ankles;
Your voice is just an echo in the woods, lost to myths.
The chorus sings of somebody leaving, leaving without looking back,
And I, the blind man in the square, clutching at his staff.

Lines on your face scratched out in wood blood for ceremony,
Rituals half-remembered, scrabbled together in a passage
Through the trees, sheltered by the setting sun squeezing through
Gaps in the leaves, like gaps in our memory, like the wind.

Temperate to tropics, station to station, border to beach;
Colours are different across degrees of longitude, east to west.
The mask you wear for this sacrifice has changed from yesterday:
Now it looks less like your spirit animal; and more like you.

This isn’t serious business here – we’re just rebuilding
Myths that fled these shores so long ago, fearing for their safety
In the shadow of the new. I tap tap tap my way across the empty square,
Trying hard to remember what memory feels like.

July 28, 2012  Leave a comment

Words per minute #28: Nagel on Nakedness

One of the remarkable effects of a smoothly fitting public surface is that it protects one from the sense of exposure without having to be in any way dishonest or deceptive, just as clothing does not conceal the fact that one is naked underneath. The mere sense that the gaze of others, and their explicit reactions, are conventionally discouraged from penetrating this surface, in spite of their unstated awareness of much that lies beneath it, allows a sense of freedom to lead one’s inner life as if it were invisible, even though it is not. It is enough that it is firmly excluded from direct public view, and that only what one puts out into the public domain is a legitimate object of explicit response from others.

- Thomas Nagel, Concealment and Exposure

July 7, 2012  Leave a comment

Radio Free Djenovici June 2012

Finished on Friday, posted on Monday, so technically: June. Another roller-coaster of a month, but they all seem to be roller-coasters at the moment. At least it’s summer, which means I can run away to the sea, do beach parties until the sun comes up on the Adriatic, and forget about all the juvenile bullsh*t. This month’s mix is subtitled Action And Adrenalin, because we can all use more of that, right?

Action And Adrenalin Tracklist (Track/Artist/Album)

Suits, Glass Boy, Showzie
Marvin, SAD, Crystal Faces
Devil’s Pie (Krts 2-Step Remix), D’Angelo, Remixes for Beards and Flannels (from Krts)
Say Goodbye (Sweet Tears House Dub), Radius, Roy Ayers Project: Beat Submission Compilation Vol 2
This Must Be The Place (Young Edits Sophisticated Melody Version), Talking Heads (edit by Youth)
Give In (For The Fame), Kuhrye-oo
Plazzio’s revenge, Tensei
Fly, DaYz & KnItE, My Brother’s Know
Numbers in Action (Dobie mix), Wiley, Jubilee Shmubilee
Totem, Wiwek, Totem EP
Judas Goat (ft Hicham Enouiti), Filastine, netBloc Vol. 38: Sojourn In A Sonic Odyssey
Sniper Wolf, Ghosts, Judge
Xenas (Datacrashrobot rmx), Plaster, Soyuz EP
Jubokko (Zgomot Mare Degeaba Mix), Makunouchi Bento, Rinbo (Remixed)
Buried, Marble Lion, Foliage EP

July 2, 2012  Leave a comment

Against the Storm

Dedicated to the girl who hit me like a train; and then ran away again.

I would speak in tongues none understand,
To tell a tale of love as knife
That wounds not to end, but to start.

I would challenge God to claims of love,
Storm heaven to return the tales
That tell the world of what love means.

I would break the rock that holds back hell,
Rushing blind in to the furnace
To spread this stolen gospel there.

I would brace myself against the cold
Threatening to freeze our hearts with pain,
And bring back fire to melt that lie.

I would turn rivers all to liquid gold,
That burn a path across the plain;
Make a message seen from the sky.

I would climb the tower and sound the bell
That calls your name. Help me turn this
Weight that holds us down to thin air;

I would fly until I rise above,
Until the strength in my wings fails,
And leave behind these flying dreams.

I would love as storm clouds love the land,
Throwing down rain to bring new life;
Pressing lightning against your heart.

June 18, 2012  Leave a comment

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